Just a thought...

I've been thinking a lot lately about family values and "ideal" situations in which to have children. When I was little, I wanted to get married, have kids, and own a cute little house with a white picket fence. Depending on how I was feeling, there would be a dog in there somewhere. My life didn't turn out that way. My children are split between two homes and both of their parents are single parents just trying to give them the life that they deserve.

Someone in my life recently told me that children should be raised in the home with both of their parents, no matter the situation, they should stay together for the kids. Yes, that is the ideal, but life doesn't always work out that way. In my situation, I loved my children's father with everything I had and I believe that he felt the same. The problem was that we didn't work out together. We were both so passionate, controlling, and manipulative of each other that it turned into an ugly situation for everyone involved.
Kynedi and Colevin are the ones who benefited from us deciding to split and go our separate ways. No matter which home they are in, they are loved more than they could ever imagine. My friends and family have stepped in and helped me to provide good examples of behavior and I can't imagine how I could ever thank them for all their support. I remember when I was pregnant with Colevin and thinking of leaving for good and I thought, I don't know how I could be a single mom with TWO kids. Not once did I ever think about not having him, or giving him up. I may not have ever had the "ideal" situation for my children, but we have made the best of life and came out pretty damn good.
My children are only five and three, but let me tell you, they are intelligent, funny, independent, and have the biggest hearts I've ever seen. I can see them having a fulfilling, happy, wonderful life all the while making their mom and dad so proud. I know my life isn't perfect, or "ideal", and neither is theirs. But I'm so glad they're here because they make my life a little more complete.