Yesterday I was looking at a picture and all of a sudden I was filled with a weird feeling. This feeling was something I had never felt before. My whole body felt as though it were being warmed from my heart. My heart started beating faster and my head swarmed with thoughts of the person I was looking at in the picture. My mouth was forced into a smile and I couldn't stop any of this. Now, I've been in love before (or thought I had) and it was the slow, safe, "you've been around forever" love that comes with time. So this was weird to me, I couldn't understand what it was that was causing me to feel this way. Then I realized, it was most definitely the seeds of love planting in my heart. I am most definitely falling in love, head first and I'm not sure if I'm prepared for it. But I'm willing to ride the ride and allow my heart to open to vulnerability. I will still be cautious and keep my eyes and ears open as this roller coaster speeds along, but I will take my foot off the brakes and take my clenched hands off the safety bar.
I just pray that this person I am falling for doesn't take my heart for granted. I hope that they understand that my heart is fragile and has been shattered many times. It's been stomped on, beaten up, crushed, and absolutely mutilated. I've had to nurse it back to life and even used a little duct tape once. I think they'll take good care of it though, they seem to have a bit of duct tape as well.
Ok, here I go...brakes are releasing and hands are loosening...
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